While I grew up an only kid, I was fortunate to have lots and lots of cousins (my dad had nine brothers and sisters). To this day a group of my older cousins still kid me about what I told them once when they asked me who I was. I couldn’t have been more than 5 or 6 years old at the time.

Apparently I told them, "Nothing." As in, "I am nothing, I am nobody."

I still don’t remember this but my cousins insist that’s what I told them. And it must have made an impression because it almost always comes up at every family gathering.

I’m sure you’ve been to a meeting, party, restaurant, business function, etc. where inevitably the question gets asked, "What do you do?"

Does anyone really even say what they do? It’s more something like, "I’m a project manager." "I’m a teacher." "I’m a business consultant." 

For the person who isn’t particularly proud of what they do, it can be an awkward moment. It might come out something like…

"I’m just a _________."

It can be equally awkward (or overwhelming, depending on your perspective) for the person who’s listening, because they might just be scratching their head wondering just what "________" is.

I’m an amateur when it comes to psychology, but I kind of have a hunch that declarations of who we are as individuals can be frought with a fair amount of anxiety or discomfort, regardless of whether we have high or low opinions of ourselves.

For the person who doesn’t feel good about themselves, the "who am I" question can be feel a little embarrassing. All the better to slap a quick job title on themselves and call it a day.

For the person who feels great about themselves and wants to let the whole world know, well, they can be received with suspicion, a kind of "who do you think you are?" attitude. They could even be seen as downright arrogant.

A good, healthy self image in some circles (and I hate to say it, but religious circles come to mind), could be frowned upon as pride. And while this can be a fine line sometimes, there are ample examples in the Bible where a good self image, self love, or self acceptance is encouraged. This verse comes to mind (my apologies to non-Bible readers…I happen to come from a Christian background!):

"…The second is this: Love your neighbor as yourself. There is no greater commandment than these." (Mark 12:31)

Over the past several months I’ve really challenged myself to take a look at who I am. For many, many years I allowed the labels of my childhood to shape me. I would even admit that I’ve allowed people in recent years to tell me who I am.

But in the quiet of my heart I’ve always known I was meant for more. I’ve felt it. When I’ve taken steps toward that destiny, I’ve often pulled myself back out of fear (see Identity Crisis: When Beliefs Clash with Capabilities to get an idea of what I mean).

To be continued…

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